For the past month, Lee and I have been teaching ourselves to enjoy his nap time. I say it has been a training for both of us, because I think that - ultimately - the training has been for me. The first two weeks, I was selfishly wanting to get things done around the house, but I was unsure about my feelings regarding the "crying it out" technique. (I am still convinced that Lee could sense my hesitation.) After our four-month visit to the pediatrician, we started over, and stuck out a long week together.
What this sleep training has shown me is that I am already having to decide what kind of parent I will be (I thought the hard stuff came later?). Recently, a friend mentioned to me that he has often been led astray simply by choosing to take the path of least resistance. Boy, would I have liked to be taking the path of least resistance with nap time the past few weeks! But this will not necessarily teach Lee what he needs to learn, so I now know I will have to guard against the temptation to put off Lee's lessons until later just to make things easier on myself.
Apparently, God has a few things to teach me as I travel down this road of becoming a parent.